Finding my way back to you feels like finding my way back to myself again, my old self .. I want to do this one special thing the girl of last year used to do .. not because I’ve changed too much, but because I want to be “last year”. Every molecule that witnessed that period of time. Yes, literally.
Years are like a forever lost friend, they turn their back at you forever but you can still have the damned guts to miss them “forever”.
One way or another. I am still the same person, carrying last year within me; the scents of last year, the music of last year, the words of last year, the blackness of last year, the god-damned memories, and the people .. well, one person. But he, being there among the rest made me not just miss him, but miss them too when he was around. I seem to be missing everything, and everything seems to long for him too, even this yearning is missing something ..
But when I thought it was the end, fate proved it’s not. Not the end, not yet. He’s still here .. Soon I will be filling you up with everything, I promise.
At this moment, I’m like an excited 5 year-old. Well, a bit more mature than that but still. Buddy, I thought I lost my dear blog forever!! *tears of joy* !! :”)
I think this is a great timing, because I have a handful of secrets to tell. I would have probably gone mad if I didn’t stumble into you today.
With pure love,