I’m scared to look at her in the eyes, I’m scared I’d collapse with my tears down towards that wicked gravity ..
I’m scared of myself, I’m scared of him.
He frightens me with his sweetness, madness, coldness, and his dark side .. I do not want to believe that he’s leaving .. my mind can’t afford to endure such a thought ..
I’m stuck in emptiness, it kills me every time we talk and I say nothing .. words are stacked in my throat .. choking me .. what would I say ? He has all kinds of powers over me ..
The thought “He’s leaving” freezes my mind .. every time ..
I keep thinking about the consequences .. a raging storm ..
I want to get rid of him .. to wake up tomorrow and realize that he left without saying goodbye .. to realize that his guts are ugly .. to hate him .. I do not want to come into his mind at all .. whether he thought good of me or not ..
He got used to leaving people behind him .. he will never care .. He’s probably going back to his old love ..
I need to find a way to survive without him ..