Lately, I’ve been so confused about my social life.Everything about my high school and my friends seemed wrong to me.I tried to hold myself together but I couldn’t. My best friends have changed, I have changed…everything has changed.
I couldn’t stand going there everyday, I knew nothing will be the same and I realized I had to get away from everyone. I couldn’t tell my friends that I had to transform into another school, because I didn’t know what to say if they asked me why. ”Because we can’t be friends anymore, because you’ve changed into someone that I don’t know” wouldn’t be the best answer.
I wasn’t sure that what I was doing is the right thing, I was too scared to even think about it so I made a final decision and transformed into another high school.
Today was my first day there, I was so nervous because I’ve never really been the new girl at school, not to mention that I can be really shy sometimes and I didn’t know what to expect.
I thought I was going to have a fresh start, meet new people and forget about all the crazy things that have happened in my old high school. But the moment I saw Julia in the hallway I knew I was wrong and I realized that the memory of my old high school will alway follow me….like a curse.
Julia happens to be the most girl I hate from my old high school, everything she does gets on my nerves. We’ve never really been friends, because she’s so mean to everyone and everyone hates her there.It made me feel bad, a mixture of feelings rushed through me. I felt angry, guilty, hopless.
I walked past her and pretended not see her, as if she didn’t exist for me. ”ANNA! Hey” I heard a surprised voice from behind me and then suddenly Julia was standing infront of me smiling so dumbly as if she was the most innocent girl in this world.
I had to spent the whole day at school with her because she was following me everywhere, oh and she kept on introducing herself as my friend from our old school (which is definitely not true).
I was too startled to react, who would’ve thought that I might actually meet someone from my old school there? and not just anyone…it’s JULIA!!.
Now I know that my life’s not getting any better, I’m so weak right now. What have I done to always get slapped on the face by LIFE??!!
I’m all alone right now.I wish there was someone out there who would understand me, and ofcourse my friends will never do.
I want to let it all out but I can’t because I’m so tired, I’m tired of trying and I feel so stupid….