Where do I start? There are so many things going on my mind,they keep on distracting me and dragging me away from happiness,and in the end I find myself lost and drown in tangled thoughts that I swear I can feel them collapsing with eachother making my mind goes blank.
I know I shouldn’t be worrying all the time but I feel like I just can’t help it. I always say ”I won’t worry or care anymore” but then after few moments I catch myself thinking again,and instead of giving up on it I keep on trying,I’ve never really given up ,at least ”not yet”.
On the other hand,I try to convince myself that this is my life and ”whatever happens happens” I should just live it the way I’m supposed to.I mean thinking and worrying won’t protect me from getting hurt ”again”,and I’m starting to believe that some things were meant to be and nothing in the world I can do to change them.
I know that all human beings think and worry about things in their lives,because that’s a part of what makes us humans.But thinking too much won’t take you anywhere,it’ll eventually make you feel weak and self-conscious on the inside specially for teenagers and that will definitely reflect badly on you.
But a while ago,I’ve started turning all of my thoughts and worries into words and writing them down somewhere instead of leaving them bouncing around in my head,even if they don’t make sense it doesn’t matter as long as I can keep my mind focused.
And now I’ve decided that I want to be an author,because I don’t just write my diary.My bestfriend has always encouraged me to write,she always tells me that I write good stories but I never really believed her until now…I’m starting to believe in myself. Yes,writing has made me believe in myself and there’s nothing better than having this feeling because it keeps on pushing you forward no matter how hard you try to look back.
Maybe it will take time, but I don’t care I’m determined to improve my writing skills. 😉
I’m glad I’ve made this blog,because I can share my stories and my thoughts with the world.And I hope that the world is somehow listening to me. 😉
(I’m sorry,I know I didn’t talk about specific thing in this post,but that was an attempt to chase some thoughts away so they can no longer confuse me…and I think they’ve just gone far away (: )
Until next time.